can you tell me what is wrong with me? identify my frailities. don't imply my actions are retarded. i never had no one to teach me. now i don't know what i'm to do. i can't get a job. i can't shop for shoes. i'm not sure what i was meant to do. servant of god or sniffer of glue. i've been holding on and on and on for years. my strengths are beginning to give in to my fears. my fear of recess and poverty are kicking me into the street. decidaphobia is my calling card. i can't choose "a" or "b" because the choice is too hard. do i want a whopper or a big mac? whatever my choice is, i'll want to take it back. turn on the tv and watch a flick. can't teach this old dog any new tricks. i've been lazy for more than 20 years. i've made a habit of steering clear. the skills i have are in low demand. calling and calling, sucking up to the man. can't get a job because i don't have a plan. i wonder what would happen if i ran. can't talk to women because i freeze and fail. i'm waiting for the anthrax to show up in the mail. calming death one day awaits me. no more pressure for productivity. i've been holding on and on and on for years. my strengths are beginning to cave in to my fears. my fear of recess and deprevity are kicking me into a new reality.